You shine brighter than neon lights

This has basically been my mantra for my life. Part of me really believes that everything does happen for a reason, and most of the time, I can figure out why (it just usually takes a few years before it makes sense).

But then theres always a part of me that thinks I just tell myself that to make things easier. Either way, it's a good mantra that keeps me going!

For the most part I'm a very positive person. I tend to be happy-go-lucky, look at the world through rose colored glasses, see the glass as half full, optimistic kind of person.

Sure I have my moments where I become cynical and start to think negatively. But for the most part I usually snap out of that pretty easily.

Maybe it's stupid, to try to be an optimist, and I have quite a few pessimistic friends that I'm sure I annoy with my positive thinking. But if I didn't have that, I wouldn't have survived all that I've been through.

I've survived a crappy childhood with a crazy mother, a long and crappy, abusive 9 year relationship with my ex where I put up with cheating for way too long.

I lost 4 babies due to miscarriage, and have been duped by a couple of shady men while first starting out new in the dating world again. And yet, I still keep a smile on my face.

Because despite all the hardship, my life is pretty damn good. I'm happy, I'm healthy, I've managed to be quite well adjusted despite my upbringing. I'm intelligent, caring, loving. I have amazing kids, and amazing boyfriend, and amazing friends. So I can't complain (too much!). :)